finally got to see my grades. surprisingly, I got lower grades at the subject I thought I did well at and my decent grades for subjects I felt I really sucked at.

Rationalizing this experience, I shouldn't care that I probably won't get an MD with honors. I won't be going to residency where grades still matter. But I don't really know what scholarship committees look for and having good grades wouldn't hurt, right? And I'm losing my chance of giving a good graduation gift to my parents.