This paper editing thing is taking longer than expected. I'm too tired to work on it on weekdays and I'm only interested on it for about an hour on weekends. Not to mention that I'm starting to think that we need to do an additional experiment to prove the validity of our methodology. *sigh* I just need to mull things over and wait for something to click. The words don't seem to string together and form a coherent passage. Hopefully, going to a meet-up later would be the sort of distraction I need.

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Also, Pusheen is god.

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Someone please hurl me to a beach (throw in some lunch money too). I need to feel the sand and the waves.

As my feed gets flooded with status and pictures of classmates taking their electives, I feel a bit jealous.

Not that I regret my choice of working as a research assistant this summer. I get to do something that I like and get paid at the same time. More importantly, I get to experience how social research is done in our local setting. Something I will not experience even with the very liberal UPCM curriculum. As I was talking to my friend about how I'm like a call center agent for the past days, she thought I'm hating it. But I'm not. Even though it's grunt work, what I'm doing is my preparation for when I head my own research projects.

And I could always go abroad for a real vacation.

But I would hate myself if I don't get to go to the beach this summer.

I probably won't be doing field work again for my summer job. It's nice to see the admin side of research projects though. I was hoping to go to at least one new province I've never been to but it's okay. At least, I can have my trigger points lysed and present our research to an international (albeit Asian) audience. And I won't have to suffer through this summer heat.

the universe doesn't want me to gain weight and be fit in time for clerkship. hello subscapular bursitis vs scapulothoracic bursitis! I hope the health service refer me to rehab medicine already, NSAIDs do decrease the swelling but it comes back once I stop taking meds.

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I may not go to my summer immersion this year. Grandfather is sick and I don't trust his current doctor.

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So this is how it feels to live in a condo with high speed internet. Good thing roomies will be gone for a month, I can download all the torrents that I want.

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Editing the manuscript wasn't as hard as it initially seemed. I just need to write two or three more paragraphs and I can return it to the Editor.

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I'm hankering for a photowalk. Time to take a shot at capturing that Manila sunset.

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I think I won't be seeing the beach this summer but we'll see.

working again in research. I love it but I'm dreading my tasks for this month. I'd be surprised if I don't become crazy after this venture.

at least I now know the password to the office's net connection.

I'm in the mood for some blasphemy today.

that was not fun.

watching an MMK episode wherein two brothers walk from Manila to Samar.

oh look, older brother got a wound on his foot... this sounds like a set-up for a sepsis-related ending.

happy that the comprehensive exams won't be based sample exam based. because so far, LU5 seems to measure your ability to recall sample exam questions and not actually knowing the material required of med students.

noticed a progression in materials that I read for exams. I've "graduated" from transcriptions and have now moved on to actual medicine books, SIMs and CPGs. Unfortunately, most of my reading material is in my laptop. Not being able to highlight stuff isn't much of a problem, the problem is I am perpetually at the mercy of power sockets and the temptation of the internet. Good thing, I'll be spending some time in Bulacan for the next two days and the net connection there is weak.

last Sunday, I facilitated a workshop on return of service. It seems that I found that thing that I can do next year outside of clerkship. Got me thinking about the DTTB program again. I'm fairly certain that my personality doesn't match the full community medicine experience then again, I'm not a good judge of what I am incapable of doing. I will have to think about these things again during my community medicine rotations in LU 6 and 7.

bursts of funny memories...

1: paano ka naging top ng PH?

2: uh... pumuntang Canada iyong top 1 and 2.

1: what?!

received the review of the amoeba paper. so this is how it feels to be a researcher. good thing I still have an adviser I can approach.