I'm dreading the upcoming exam in Anatomy.

Somehow, I keep on underperforming or underachieving... whatever. I don't like my new found (what I see) mediocrity. Something I've wanted in the past but I now hate to have. That was a time when my dreams were small, tiny and selfish. My dreams are still selfish but grander and I can't achieve that easily if I don't do better in med school.

Still haven't failed an exam though which is a small achievement I guess.

And I hate how med school (curricular and extra-curricular) is eating up my spare time. I'm finding it hard to picture myself being a commuter for the next four years.